Archive for May, 2005

Something to celebrate!!

Sunday, May 29th, 2005

Today i got a new doggy, it is a mix-bred Labrador. it is black in colour and although it is not a pure breed, we love her so much… She is very cute and still a puppy. We named her Abby which represents Abigail meaning "Father is rejoicing. What a blessing this pet will be". She is so cute, and i am blessed to have this dog.

At first we had some struggle in introducing this new dog to Sandy, which is our resident dog. Sandy is very fierce, knowing that her position is treathen. Everything went fine until now, they are friends now… Praise the Lord!!!!

Got to go, tomorrow going to KL. See ya guys!!! keep me posting ok? write comments if you want!!! May God bless everybody!!!

Life, time and decisions…

Sunday, May 29th, 2005

yeah i totally agree with Calvin… time flies wait for no man.

It was like yesterday i am in kindergarten crying and going round and round the premice dont want to go into the class… i am now almost 5"11′… 17 years past and when i think back, what have i done? Time, so abstract that we cant really understand how it works…it just keep going forward, and never backward… Sometime when i think back, how foolish am i to waste my time doing nonsence… even now, i do many things out of pressure, not really on what my will wants… is this life? am i living a RIGHT life? no one actually knows…..

Life involves decisions too… sometimes it is hard to make decisions… to do or not to do.. do and what consequence and not do what consequence… and many times in my life i come to a cross road, but sometimes to a dead end. I’ll HAVE to decide my future. But it is inevitable to make decisions without hurting anybody, without rejecting anyone…even a few days ago, i made a decision, but i regreted it. (i am not going to tell what), but i do hurt my mom by doing so, and if i dont, i’ll hurt my friend.. this is life…is it?..uhhhh, i am confused!!???!!!

God!!!! please help me… help me to go through this agony… i want a happy and meaningful holiday, i want to spend more time with my family!!! very soon, i am going going out of the house to study, and it is for sure i’ll come across more juctions, more crossroads and even more dead ends.. Lord, please hear my cry, help me to make decisions wisely… I know our life is not perfect, but at least, Lord, help me do the right choise, which is best for you and for everybody…*sob..*sob…

Sigh… since i’ve already made this decision, my as well go ahead with it, go and enjoy my holidays… Lord, please give me an enjoyable holiday, i really want a rest for my mind…

Thanks to Wong Ji Yin, he helped me a lot. He let me know that i must live a meaningful and godly life, not following others blindly that will only bring doom to ourself…. Praise the Lord, i feel much better now….I hope i’ll enjoy my church camp!!! HALLELUJAH!!!

Interesting…

Saturday, May 28th, 2005

Hey guys, just now i went for dinner with my family. We went to a Korean BBQ restaurant and it was interesting!! We ordered a set for 4 and they put some charcoal inside and ready-made hole in the middle of the table… then a piece of flat wok with small holes on top of the fire. She poursome oil on it.. and then they also poured some water beside the charcoal place so that it wont smell…. I was fun having BBQ in an Air-Con restaurant…1st time in my life!!!! then after a while when the flat wok got too hot and the smoke starts to come out of the holes, they put a piece of "wong-ah-bak" on top of the charcoal… "wong-ah-bak" is a type of vege and i am sure that all mothers know what it is… this is to prevent smoke from coming out….

It was a satisfying meal…. I tell you, all the things are so ingeniusly made. things that you will never think of and they are quite fresh and scrumptious although it is just a small restaurant at Oakland near Makro, beside Kengsinton. Opened by some chinese from China and it is interesting…. i had a good time there with my family….

Okey… i vow the next time i want to have a gathering with my friends i will surely fo there…. not very expensive too!!!! hahaha, if you wanna go, it is just beside Kengsinton. The Korean BBQ is just to new an experience to me and for sure all of you… you must try eh… if got chance lah… haahah

(how come nowadays i become so fat liow ak? i dont eat much what?)

;) Occupation :)

Saturday, May 28th, 2005

Today, my aunt came back from Australia to visit us…. she told me a lot of things.. i am blessed to have her as my aunt, i as the nephew!!hahaha

At first, she asked me what is my ambition, i told her about my wish to become an engineer and she told me this….

" Ming jie, your responsible as a student is to study and so do your best in the glory of God. Let me tell you my form 5 life. I was a top student in my school. I always get 98 for my ad.maths and 99 or so for my Chemistry. For physics, i’ll at least get a 90. And those are my strong papers..(in my heart i say WOW, how great she was!!). I really wanted to go for the Chemical engineering course, but when i think back, thank God for closing that door…"

She was so interested in Chemistry and Physics. But now she is a very successful Marketing Manager. Once Loreal company offered her a RM 19,000 job and a chauffer but she rejected. She was then working in Uniliver which is the company for Wall’s ice cream, Sunsilk, Dove and many more… She is a powerful woman… I mean VERY VERY successful person… But the point is, she is a MARKETING MANAGER!!! how come she is in an ART stream subject?

Then she began telling me about her life… She was a very INTROVERT person. That time, she studies 8 hours a day just to maintain her top scorer position… however, she felt so shy, she felt so lonely and sick even though she has a good brain. She then started going to church. Those who always get fail for their papers are just sitting next to her and suddenly the pastor told them that Introvert personality is actually pride in one’s self. She was then struck by those words and she got into Art Stream, trying to become a person that is more out-going. She tried so hard. Trying to be an Outvert person is not easy especially when you have to remain to be yourself… you must be truthful while trying to change into what you are not… she prayed and she got into USM. She thought to herself, how come i dont go for Malaya U? Why cant i go and take engineering and other Sciences? She told me that she almost change back to a famous U instead of a small U in penang…. But she finally settled in USM. She says that she wanted to change and thus following God’s word everyday.

She is now a successful person in life, working in Melbourn as a Marketing Manager. Who says that studying in local U cant help you be a successful person? Who says you must follow what other people think you are? Who says a person cant change? She wanted to change so much and she tried to be herself. She succeeded. She doesnt want to be locked inside the Lab forever pouring chemicals and invent new things. She wants to be lifely. She wants LIFE!!! that is all.. She finally found out that although she is very very good in Sciences, that doesnt mean that she LIKES it..got that?

Thank God for her, i understand more now… I want to make a right choice. She even prayed for me and ask me to pray for God’s direction… Let thy will be done…

Yes Lord!!! Hallelujah!!

Frustrated

Friday, May 27th, 2005

1.First thing in the morning frustrated me… my clock became so disobedient and it rang at 4:30…and then at 4:45, 5:00, 5:30……I WAS MAD AT IT BECAUSE I"VE SET IT TO RING AT 6:10am!!!! The frustration made me pull out the batery and it really helped me to have a good time sleeping… However, i woke up late because without the clock’s help, i’ll have to depend on my mom and my mom would always wake me up late……

2.I was doing my EST paper…. half way through my paper, my eyes blured and i fell asleep…then about 15 minutes later, thanks to my friend’s concern, they noticed me sleeping and woke me up…. praise the Lord and i manage to finish the paper in time… actually, i still have some time to sleep…muahahahahaha

3.I did my PJK paper "QUITE WELL" and i wrong almost half the paper, as you all know, i dont read newspaper… even if i do, i’ll not take the trouble to read the Sports part…..but the OBITUARY part, maybe..(hahaha)… sigh… that was a bad one for my test…

4.I held a meeting with some of my juniors… i wanted to talk but i stuttered… i wanted to present something but i dropped them…. why is it like that? i dont know….haha

5.Straight after the chapel, i rushed to the tuition class at Tmn. Baiduri - Accounts tuition…. after 2 hours of stress and hair-pulling session, i finally get through the class and started to walk outside when Ms. Sharon. dismissed us… it was about 3:15pm then….. 3:30, i waited patiently and started to get bored, so i decided to read the BUKU RUJUKAN……3:45, i am getting tired coz you know, the ramps at the road side have cats’ and dogs’ shit, so i cant even put my bag down on the floor, what more sitting down…..4:00, i have back pain and i almost finished the first chapter…….4:15, i finished the first chapter and the sun is blaring straight at me….. then i decided to go to Calvin’s house to phone my mom. I was so grateful then that one of my friends is staying there…really, i thank God for that….then when i phone my mom, she informed me to wait just a little while… okie…. i waited and in the meanwhile listening to the pulling of violin by the ACS artiste, Calvin Lim…..Vroomm….. There my mom was… went out and got up to the car……"sorry ah boy, i shop until forget time liow…." that was the answer…nvm…. i forgive her… So then i slept in the car, exhauted..

5.My relatives came to my house, i enjoy their presence but it actually stopped me from resting after the whole, solid 3-week test… it was exhauting…no sleeping at all…. so i better go and sleep now.!! ahahahha

6.Nevermind…. God is with me, Emmanuel, kakakaka… i am so happy to be in the truth…i think of God every hour, every minute and every second!!!…. it give me joy!!! Praise the Lord…. and may the Lord help me to enjoy my holidays!!! hahahah

7.And you all too, Enjoy yourself in the holidays!!!! BYE BYE and see you guys when school reopens…!okie?

Oh Happy Day!!

Thursday, May 26th, 2005

What a joyyyyyyyyful day! really! this is a very happy day for me…just dont know why. May be because i am gald to have good friends, and also holidays are just around the corner…but most importantly is that the test is just one day left!!!!

Praise the Lord! and also Carrie won the American Idol,there are just  to many things to celebrate!! And i also know the truth, i know God, i experience His love!! this is the ultimate hapiness in me!!!!

Today, when i read other people’s blog, i really learn a lot from them..

One from shirley. She started her college life and she can’t sleep at night without knowing why… i think i know why - home sick. Many people feel that way too but eventually one can suite himself one day with the new life..

Her blog brought my memory back to about 6 years back.. My whole family were sending my eldest sis to her University in Melaka… i didnt even have the slightest thought that that would be the last day she would be at home for 24 hours a day for a year… i hope you know what i mean….i really feel sick and sad, i miss my sis a lot… she is now working, staying in KL and only comes back once a week..

Imagine..this is hers.. what about me? i think i will have trouble overcoming the "HOME-SICK" life when i go out and study… I pray that Lord God almighty will help me to go through that new chapter of my life.. may the Lord guide me…

The second one is from Sandra… she taught me something too. She is in her new school and it was like a "going-to-hell" experience to her…

From there i’ve learn to be a person that appreciates what we have around us.. we must always be grateful for what we have now, if not we’ll regret later in life….this is how God works: He uses temptations to help us grow but satan uses it to pull us down; God uses the poor people around us to make us know how blessed we are; God uses non-christian friends to help us understand how joyful we are to know the truth…

So there are times when we are so unsatisfy with the condition we are in.. but the truth is that we should be growing in Him instead of complaining and growning of what we dont have.. and we must appreciate what people do for us and also appreciate what we have in our lives…. sometimes it is hard to just forget everything on earth and follow Christ… it is never easy….

Anyway, i enjoy reading other people’s blog because i really learn a lot, I MEAN A LOT!!!! i learn good english and i learn about facts of life… somtimes you just feel so grateful you are not in some kind of situation…blah blah blah…. and sometimes you just have to accept what you have and giving thanks unto the Lord… It helps me to learn to lean on God and not on man.. Thanks everyone out there….

Half:), Half:(.. Dont know why..

Wednesday, May 25th, 2005

HOORAYY!!! today is the last day for the Sciences.. Good ridance for the papers.. great ! we are going to hav our mid-year holidays!

But dont know why, i just dont feel right today. something is just bothering me.. i will run away from books liow, trauma u know, scared lah. no mood to study my History paper also… so cham.. maybe it is because i have holiday mood already, always thinking of family outings and many more, just dont feel like studying…

Anyone like that? i think i am the only one lor, sedih case. I dont even feel the anxiety of SPM, but i really do want "some" of that kind of feeling…. that urge myself to study, aiyah, no point pushing myself lah, no feeling means no feeling… sigh….

Anyway, test is going to be over VERY soon.. YEAH FRIENDS, IF YOU ARE READING THIS BLOG, PLEASE KNOW THAT FROM MY SHEER HEART I WISH ALL OF YOU DO YOUR BEST IN SPM AND GET A FLYING COLOUR RESULT IN SPM ALTHOUGH IT IS JUST A TEST… but remember that God is the most important in your life, without God, there will be no "you"!!…~~ hahaha, got that? aiya, a bit complicated lah….

So, any plans for the hols? any interesting one? However, i urge all of you to enjoy your holidays, and relax coz you’ll have to work hard again after this!!! I just pray that God will help me go through this year of SPM. But guys, remember what i’ve told you, ENJOY your hols!!! Free your mind!!! ok?

There is a quotation i got from sont know where… haha: "Enjoy today, for yesterday has gone, tomorrow may never come".. Got that again? nvm just enjoy. Okey. not too long, people are complaining liow, muahahaha, see ya guys!

Is God Good?

Wednesday, May 25th, 2005

OK, they are many who are confused.. Christianity is not a religion, it is about the relationship between a person and God. You have to experience His love, it is exciting!

The_cross When we make the statement that God is good, what do we mean by good?

Our natural tendency is to believe that if God is good and He loves mankind, then He will make life pleasant for us.

Consequently, when things go well for us, we’re inclined to think that God is good, and when they don’t, we question His goodness or even His existence. 

Our current happiness is not a standard by which to judge God’s goodness.

We are not the center of the universe, not the reference point against which goodness can be judged. It sounds silly even to say it, but we act and think as though God’s goodness depends on how well we like what’s going on.

We are not in a position to judge the goodness of God’s actions. We see too small a part of the overall picture — a picture that covers all of time and all of mankind.

The only way for us to know whether God is good is to get to know Him, to experience His character first hand.

When God reveals Himself to us, then we know that He is good.

That is our experience of Him. Goodness beyond imagining, goodness that is pure and true and complete. 

When we know that God is good, then we begin to see Him bringing good out of sufferings and tragedies.

This is the form God’s goodness takes in our world: He works to bring every person to a knowledge of Himself and to an active relationship with Himself.

This is goodness: to know God, to experience His love and guidance in our lives.

Is God good?  There is no other good but God. He is the source of everything that is good

Taken from www.runningempty.org, interesting, go check it out!

When we ask for more….Think!

Monday, May 23rd, 2005

Hi guys,

Yesterday i watched the movie called "13 going to 30" which tells a tale of a girl who is in her teenage world,13. She is normal, like everyone of us. But then, she has many desires, maybe because she is in her puberty. She is a girl who is not very pretty, but yet she would try anything just to be as beautiful as the model shown in the magazine "Poise". She wants to be the Prom of her school and she wants to be the friend of the "Six Chic" which is the most popular group of girls in her school. However, she is often rejected by them because of her appearance although sometimes she is tired of trying to be a person which is NOT herself! In their teenage years, they like to be LIKED by other guys, i mean handsome cool guys…which is in the show, Chris(same age). Unfortunately, no one likes her but a guy call Matt. He is fat, and sometimes "old-fashion" especially in the 1980’s. They are good friends and they are neighbours. One day, this girl, Jenna Rink, held a party at her house to celebrate her 13th birthday. She invited the Six Chic and of course, Chris. Meanwhile, Matt came to her house and gave her a Barbie-doll housewhich is her dream house with some wishing powder on it. When the Six Chich came, she chunk the whole thing in the store room and wanting to join in the group, she rejected Matt and made him go home. Before she can say anything, the Six Chic and friends made her go into the store room to play a game, which she has to wait inside, blindfolded, for a nice guy to open the door for her. Things went upside down, they gone back, and Matt is the guy that opens the door. She frowned and lock herself inside the store room. She then wished to be 30 and suddenly, the wishing powder dropped on her and poof! she is now 30.

Ok, she is in her dream house, nice and comfy and expensive. And there she is, agaped that she is now 30. She is very very scared, and then the is a guy in her house, naked!(not shown) She feared and ran down her apartment immediately. To cut the story short, she found out she is still Jenna, but a total different person. She is the Leader of the Designer of the Magazine "Poise" and she is Lucy’s leader, which is the leader of Six Chic then… Lucy and her work hard to make "Poise" magazine the best by designing cover. However, Jenna couldn’t believe that she is now 30. She asked her secretary to find Matt. Matt told everything about her…. they have lost contact for 17 years because she is now a totally different person. She has an affair with a husband of a woman, she sleeps with different kind of people, she does anything to reach her goals, no matter what way she used, even firing people in her office, she would just use it to achieve her dream. She is filthy rich and always driven to office by a limousin.

No matter what her past is, she is now a 13-year-old girl trapped in a 30-year-old body. She tried her best to be a better person and she cries everyday. Matt is the only one she can talk to. Anyway, Matt is now a handsome man going to marry a beautiful woman. Her heart broke and she went back to her village. She went back to the last place she remembered, the store room. When her parent are back, She hug them and cried, she even sleep in the same bed with her parents. She missed them so much. Now they are old, everything has changed, the world is moden and she couldnt stand the next second.

She continues to struggle in her life. She then succeded in making a whole new cover for "Poise". However, everything was ruined when Lucy took her project and went to the rival company to be the Designer. She is very sad and she ran to Matt’s wedding. She tells him that she loves him while on the other hand, Matt is not for they have not seen each other for 17years!!! so then Matt gave her a new Barbie-doll house because Jenna threw the old one at him when they were 13. So this is the one with wishing powder too. Fortunately, she went back to her 13 body. She hugged, Matt and parents. 17 years later, they marry each other.

Arent we always not satisfy with what we have? Arent we always asking for more? Do you want to look at your future like Jenna did then only regret? Arent we just too stubborn to understand that everything is God’s blessings and we should be satisfy with it?

Yea, Yea, Yea… Remember, life is not just about what you want. It also means love, and how you spend your life. When you spend your life meaningfully, you wont regret it. So remember to give thanks to the Lord for what you have NOW and cherish it while you still can coz we dont have the chance like Jenna to go to our future. However, no matter what problem you have, seek God, he will solve it for you if you have faith in Him. He will show you the way and also he will make a way when there seems to be no way. So, cherish what you have, not asking for more than you can afford, earthly things and wealth do not mean everyhing.

Also be reminded that God has a plan for you. So just be grateful of what you have and make the full use of your life, love while you still can !

!i!i!i! NO No no !i!i!i!

Friday, May 20th, 2005

Are you kidding? one more week to go? hey man, look, i am 99.9% dead now, praise God tomorrow is a Saturday, and we are going to have a day off on Monday….. ok.. let’s say that i rejuvinated 49.9%, but i am still half-dead. When am i going to finish this mid-year test? huhhh, ridiculous !

Still, i am frustrated over many things, many many many things in fact. I pray that God will take away the burden. Sometimes i do feel like running away from the house, to a place like the Isle of Innesfree.. where i can do what i want to do and concentrate on the Lord…. sigh…..

In spite of all that, i consider myself fortunate and Blessed by the Lord to have such a great family, although sometimes they do smash my heart, i mean it, smash, not break…anyway, if you wanna know, i am so glad i have two extra, very, extremely, ultimately, extraordinary, ultra, super good sisters and a very^1000 kind and thoughtful mother and also a dull, straight but good father. They love me and i love them. Thank God for that blessing. Hallelujah!

Since this is the first time i am writing a blog, i wanna thank those who have been supporting me all these while..special thanks to my sister, June and my friends, Calvin, Haotim, Hwee Hsin, Soong, and many many more…

Remember, God loves us !!!!