Darryl’s belogue

Hi friends, i almost wave a white flag. There are just too many things happening in my life that i dont even have the time to "blog" it down… I am just to busy to do such thing at such time, especially when the trial SPM is just around the corner. I guess all of you are facing the same hectic life too… but let us all strive for the best…

*sigh*… where should i start? It has been a long long time i have not been doing blogging. I am 100% sure that you guys are the same. I dont even have the time to read other’s blog… I just wanna write something here before i go and continue my work… i am tired..

When the page opened, i have many testimonials and messages… this is one of the sign eh..?!  on 11th of July, Calvin, Timothy and myself represented the school for the Additional Maths Competition in Sekolah Teknik Tunku Jaafar. i failed to do the best and i mess up the whole thing by getting the lowest mark among us… and our school got 12 i think among 37 schools. I think this is the worst experience i have ever had. I regreted not studying and being overconfident. I felt so sorry to nboth of my friends. If i werent there, they might have grab a better result… Anyway, my friends never put this in their heart. I thank God for such concerning friend..

On, 12th of July, i was again flabbergasted by a phone from the government dental doctor. She asked me to go and put my braces the day after tomorrow of the particular day, which is on the 14th of July. I was shocked. I have not prepare anything…. and above all, i have not "eat all i can" before i know when i am fitting on the braces. The braces is torturing. It was so painful the first day that i can only "drink" porridge. Though, i cant control myself when my parents eat durian, i eat along, pulling out the flesh and put it on my toungue and the durian the the best i havfe ever eaten. I suffered for about 4 day till now, it is already a week. at least now i am feeling better than the first day.

On last Saturday, which is 16th of July, Calvin, Chang WH and me again went to Tafe college for a "Science and Maths" quiz.. this is crazy.. all in English and some of them we havent even heard before. We did our best but yet we still cant get to go for the final round.. We were rather dissapointed because the final round questions are quite easy and we are confident we can get a place if we get to the final round… but, too bad…. But this is God’s will.. isnt it?  It is planned by God, maybe to train me to learn to accept failures…

And Gosh, i have do "much" homework!!! I cant finish it if i dont sit on my chair for at least 4 hours… Well, i am too tired now because of homework, futhuremore, i’ll have to study for my trial exam that will start very soon.

Next, our school is holding a "talentime" competition and i participated in modern dancing and group singing. Though i know my singing sucks, but i still give it a try because this is my last year in ACS… i wanna enjoy myself…. and today, we had "audition" which is the first round of talentime to eliminate those who are not very good. Tomorrow we are having a "raptai" so that everything will be smooth sailing on Friday… And this surely is going to eat up a lot of my time.

And today, i again was shocked by the news that my teacher wants to give intensive class for a few of us because of some reason… then it will take up most of my time concentrating in the subject.. i am going crazy!!!!!!!

In spite of all this mess, i pray that the Lord will always be there for me. And i know that he’ll lift up my burden when i am weary. I will not be afraid.. Thank you Jesus…

And I want to thank my friends too because they always offer helping hands to me… thanks guys……….. And i wish all of you get a good result in SPM…

Sorry for not reading your blogs… i have to go now…. i have already used up at lot of my time here…. And there are worse to come… so i’ll consider this a practice for me to face whatever is in my future….

My life getting miserable after each day….. especially now…. how come everyone has the urge to study BUT NOT ME!!??!! WHYY!???  RRRHHHHH…. nevermind, i guess maybe i am too lazy…

AHH… I dont care about that. But today i went to my tuition class. My tuition teacher told us this : Obey your father and mother, do not hate them just because they scold you or they nag at you. Respect them because there arent much time left for you to build a BONDING between you and family members. REMEMBER this…in average, most of us leave our parents at the age of 18.  That means you only have 18 years to really build a bond between you and your family members. After that, you will fly… you will be a part of the world. The world owns you… and you are responsible for whatever you do…

And you grow…. you study, you grow and you get married… Let us say you get married at the age of 30. and you have your children, you become a father. You grow old, may be you can have a great great grandson…. and you die at the age of 70… let me count..: YOU HAVE ONLY 18 YEARS WITH YOUR FAMILY, AND YOU LIVE ALONE FOR ABOUT 12 YEARS, making decision all by your own… THEN YOU GET MARRIED AT THE AGE OF 30 AND DIE AT THE AGE OF 70…. THAT SUMS UP YOU LIVE YOU LIFE WITH ANOTHER PERSON (YOUR SPOUSE) FOR 40 YEARS!!!!!

The period you live with your parents is just like a foundation of a building. They give you food, education, love, things, and make sure you are well brought up. Then, you go out of your house to the world, you start building your own house.. and your family. Then it goes well. If the parents did not do their part, the foundation will be a slummy one. And thus you cant build a firm foundation. But yet you only live with your parents for 18  YEARS whereas you live with someone you dont know for 40   YEARS!

ok…. i think you all know what i mean.. So if your parents nag at you or scold at you, it is for your own good. They mean no harm… they just want to give their best foundation to you so that you can build your own house firmly in the future… So just love them, they are your closest people on earth. you are going to leave the nest very soon, and i am sure you will miss your nest… for sure!!! 100% sure. For some of you, this year might be the last year you stay with your family members 24 hours a day and 7 days a week. So then you are leaving, you are all alone… so in conclusion, cherish your family, spend more time with them before you leave them for the future endeavours all by yourself.

HMM…. i hope you all know what i mean… i crap too much adi… i think i better stop… just hope that you all spend more time with your family besides studying.. i see some of the people spend their time studying more than they are with their family. Is the book his family? Did that book give birth to him?

OK, may God Bless You All

Gosh… today i feel so happy to be in the church… i want more of it… the choir sang wonderfully and if i am given a chance, i am for sure i had already join the choir years ago… but u know lah, my voice not good also…haha

Just now, i read other people’s blog. I read Calvin’s, Yi Zheng’s, Hwee Hsin’s, Emmanuel’s and many more… then i read mine.. i found this norm… all of us are facing confusion in our lives. We are all going through a phase of life that is making us feeling…. EMPTY and HOLLOW… and then i saw this word.. OBDURATE… it means : Hardened against feeling; hardhearted and Hardened against feeling…. i suppose all these we are facing make us a bit more obdurate day by day… sometimes, we have feelings that are so hard to be described. I do not know how to continue this blog because all that i have read sums up what i feel now… it is not something you can write out in just a few lines…. it is something inside you that fluctuates…. UUUUUHHHHH……

Vague…. all that i was writing was vague… i cant really tell you all what i feel, but surely you all face the same thing too  …. sigh… no matter what it is, i want to always trust in the Lord…

Jesus said, " Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and i will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from ME, for i am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11:28-30

i am confused and i feel so empty today….. but i dont want to talk about that…

what a day for me, i really relax myself these 2 days… i start to go to my scholl things at only 10 and sleep at 10:30…. so nice, i even went shopping with my family untill 10… i am so blessed.

I feel even more blessed when i hear the ceramah today. i almost cried… infact i cried in my heart.. there are so many people living in this world and many of them are facing problems that i dont have to face. This penceramah was a drug addict. He was from a destitude family and he started indulging cigarretes when he was only 9. He has a father that always come back drunk, staggered to his room. all he cares was beer. When i closed my eyes i can feel what he was feeling. He doesnt even want to go home. There was so much pain in his life.. i really thank God for blessing me with a good family.

It has been a long time i did not update my blog. i was so busy. busy in sleeping. HAHAHAHA, however, i manage to finish most of my homework lah. one more thing is that i am fed up with the Friendster Blog coz when i sign in as Darryl, my sister’s blog came out. i cant even have a look at my blog, what more to edit my blog. Anyway, i feel so free today. i am not going to doing anything. Tomorrow go tuition then only do homework…. so lazy….

OH HAPPY DAY!!!!!!!!! praise the Lord!!