Darryl’s belogue

The clock ticks, non-stop.

All the plants outside the windows are so still..

no wind at all.

I sit at the living room,

with only the swirling and churning of the ceiling fan,

the sound fill my ears..

Everything was so calm… so quiet, so lonely…

but that is only on the outside.

In my heart, and brain, and soul,

raging temper fills me,

thousands of question marks appeared,

and inevitably,

my body temperature rises,

tears start falling,

and hands starts to scrach my head.

I dont knwo why all these happen.

Confusion… i have to surrender..

only to Him

it is 6:16 in the morning. I was forced to wake up… and i certainly felt different yet familiar when i walk in the breeze of the morning along the road.. The sun has not yet risen, and those memories where morning calls were common made me shed my tears… I wanted to go to school, no, should say, i still want to go to school, where my friends and i laugh together. But, time passes, there is no turning back… we must only look forward for a better future, and not forgetting to look back to remember the mistakes we have done. Cherishing each second i spent with my friends, i never regreted that i’ve known them…. and i have learned much from them…. All these, all these will only be stored in my memory forever, though i do not have the chance to walk that school life again….

To all my friends, i sincerely wish all the best and May God Bless in whatever you are going to do, some may be going oversea, some may not.. not matter what, remember that you all will always be in my heart, you all that  once made me smiled….

9:30 am

: woke up, read the newspaper…. No one at home, sister still sleeping… very lonely….

10:10 am

: had my breakfast, started doing housework… very boring and quiet…

11:00 am

: was anxious waitng for the postman to come.. in fact, I was waiting for the ASEAN results, seemed ages before the postman came…. Continued doing house chores… parents came back….

12:00 pm

: I guess postman lost his way, not here yet…. Cotinued my houseworks..

1:00 pm

: postman finally came, but was very disappointed that there is no mail from ASEAN…. Went out for lunch with family… went to makro to change faulty item…

2:30 pm

: I called singapore, cant wait for the mail which is 2 days late, I did not get ASEAN scholarship… I was quite disappointed, though I already knew I cant get it… wished Calvin get it…

2:40 pm

: prayed to God, may be he has a greater plan for me… I prayed too that He will help me to surrender myself to His plans and will…

3:00 pm

: continued houseworks.. but rested for two hours later… went to do some maintainance on my computer, has been very inefficient these days…

4:00 pm

: had a nap, sweet dreams..

5:10 pm

: Hao tim called…both of us happy to talk to each other… No doubt, I miss him, I miss every of my friends.. I miss the days when we sit together in the calss talking and laughing…

Some topics we discussed : tertiary education, National Service, LAN party that we planned to have, time and place to meet each other, some activities to fill up our free time… (

marshall

art classes, courses).. I was relunctant to hang up the phone, coz we do not know when is the next time we can chat together like this….again….

6:00 pm

: helped my mom to buy some things in Seremban 2, got to practise my driving skills… very boring….

6:20 pm

: brought my dog, Sandy for a walk, coz after two weeks I am gonna be going to Khidmat Negara… going to miss her so much… cycled around the Taman, walked around my house compound, though I think it was lame, since National Service is only 3 months long…

7:00 pm

: happy because did not have to help out in gardening today… neighbour drop by at our house to chat….

7:30 pm

: bathed, wanted to watch tv, but I did not…. Chat with neighbour..

8:00 pm

: had our dinner, the dinner was great… washed the dishes…

8:30 pm

: Genieve’s mom came… happy to see her, brought a Christmas hamper and a card for us…. (thanks Genieve, Merry Christmas and May God Bless!) chatted…. Just a while…

9:00 pm

: I helped my mom in manicure… then prepared for the local tour we are going tomorrow… rested and had some entertainment (tv lah of course)…

10:30 pm

: the day’s last two hours… switched on the computer to write this blog…. With a heavy heart, I wrote this blog, coz I feel sad that things and time changes so fast… I am not going back to school…anymore.. sigh…

11:00 pm

: posted this blog…. Deep in my heart, I want to wish all my friends all the best in your future endeavours, and I wish all of you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year…I miss all of you.. keep in contact! May God Bless You All

FRIENDS OF 5 SETIA…. THANKS A LOT FOR YOUR CARE… WE ARE SAYING GOOD BYE…

HOPE THAT WE CAN MEET EACH OTHER VERY SOON…

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